Cheater, Cheater, What Have You Done?

i cheated.

i did what i said i’d never do.

i could give you a handful of excuses. each one would sound more reasonable than the next. each one would come with sincere emotion. each one could be supported by evidence that exists in my life. but, each one would still be an excuse.

the world does not exist merely in black and white, but there is still right and wrong. perhaps i had good reasons for finding myself in love with someone else. good reasons, however, do not make me any less wrong.

in the last six months, my life has been filled with every possible emotion on the spectrum. in the last six months, i have experienced the highest highs and the lowest lows i will likely ever encounter. in the last six months, i’ve made some of the best and worst decisions of my life. and in the last six months, i’ve been wrong.

i have hurt my lover. she was all at once my sin and my soul. i have hurt my husband. he is my best friend. and i have hurt me. the cuts to my heart are irrepairable.

i did what i said i’d never do.

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