May 2011
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“I am still in love with her. Not a day breaks but that I think of her, and when...”
– jeanette winterson: the passion
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is there a statute of limitations on personal transgressions? or will i be judged for falling in love with someone else for the rest of my life?
these are the things i ask myself daily. in rebuilding, there is a part of me that simply wants to move on. i can still recognize the changes. i can still recognize what happened. but i really just want to move forward with my life.
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“as your lover describes you, so you are.”
– -jeanette winterson
i wonder how she would describe me now. at the start, she said i was her world. she said i was beautiful. she called me pulchritudinous. at the end, she said i was a liar. she said i was blackened and tarnished and without integrity. but now? now so much has shifted. most...
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in the beginning
it started with a picture. a pixelated image. my heart flew out of my chest. my breathing stopped. my brain tried to put on the breaks. but my fingers were tapping out: “i think you’re beautiful.”
for weeks i’d been captivated by her wit. i was drunk on her words, her jokes, her stories, her library, her every move. but it was that picture that finished me.
the way her...
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i cheated.
i did what i said i’d never do.
i could give you a handful of excuses. each one would sound more reasonable than the next. each one would come with sincere emotion. each one could be supported by evidence that exists in my life. but, each one would still be an excuse.
the world does not exist merely in black and white, but there is still right and wrong. perhaps i had good reasons for...